Title: Free to fly
Author: elfling_eryn
Beta: nekoshounen
Characters/Pairing: Hisagi Shuuhei/Kira Izuru
Rating/Warnings: R
Theme: #08. butterflies


earlyer (please read in that order):
4. masks - everything has to change
12 parting ways/meetings - never good at letting go
3. the rain - あめ　が　ふろ
14. conspiracy - Three Words
11. Standing to defend you - Prejudice


The next days went on like the ones before and both, Kira and Hisagi got more and more riled up.
Work was now a burden to them, not a thing they enjoyed, like it had been beforehand.
So they stayed inside their offices and shut out their surroundings, quickly heading to the other one as soon as work finished.
They had agreed that they would go home in the evening and meet at a set time, though Kira sometimes waited close to the ninth division for Hisagi to finish his work.

~~~~*~~~~

A week had passed and nothing had changed, but Tousen and Ichimaru couldn't stand the scene, so they decided it needed to be changed.
So when, the next morning Kira and Hisagi entered their offices their found exactly the same note on their desk.

Good Morning
Because things seemingly don't want to calm down, we decided, that the two of you needed a week off.
You should use this week to get out of Seireitei and come to term with everything.
Good luck

Beneath the note the signature of their taichou was placed and next to the note an advertising literature of a peaceful little Onsen was placed.
They immediately retreated and met at Hisagis, a places Kira now lived most of the time.
They decided they'd spend the week in the Onsen and both went to pack their backs.
Around midday you could see them head out of Seireitei.

~~~~*~~~~

The stayed silent for the entire journey but as soon as they left Seireitei they both started to relax.

~~~~*~~~~

On late afternoon they reached their destination and went inside. It didn't take them long to get a room for the upcoming week.
After having their rooms presented to them they both sat down on the small veranda in front of their room, which lead to the tiny garden with the hot spring inside it.
They just sat in silence, like they were just to, both feeling comfortable just like that.
They watched the sundown and the stars appear. It grew colder now, but they just moved closer together and watched the stars.
Later they went to bed, both exhausted from the last weeks occurrences and all the stress they had had to endure.
Only now the really realized how hard the last week had been, and they both felt, how hard it had been for the other one, to be with him.

Especially Kira had regrets, because all the time he had shown his pain and feelings, while Hisagi had suffered alone, so Kira wouldn't have to carry that weight too.
Now he felt it come down on him and he felt it heavy on his mind and he wondered if it was right for him to just show his pain, while Hisagi had to hide everything inside.

~~~~*~~~~

When Hisagi woke up the next morning he found the futon beside him empty and cold. No sign of Kira was anywhere near the room, also not in the tiny garden or anywhere in the house.
He was very worried, especially because one of the employees told him that, yes, he had seen the blond Shinigami. And he had seemed very lost in thought and also very sad.
Because of that Hisagi skipped breakfast and quickly headed off, searching for Kira.

It took him almost all the day, but in the end he found Kira on a clearing, sitting in the grass without moving and watching the butterflies surrounding him, dancing through the air and every now and then settling down on his body. He didn't seem to be happy though, and of course he had felt Hisagi approach him so he wasn't surprised when, all of a sudden, the butterflies retreated and searched for another place to dance.

Kira didn't move, just sat there and looked into the air before him, nothing in particular, just so he didn't had to look into Hisagis eyes and admit his doubt about their relationship to him.

Out of nowhere Kira said: “You know, sometimes I wish I'd be able to become a butterfly.” His voice sad and melancholic.
“Why that?”, Hisagi asked confused.
“Because then I'd be free to fly wherever I want and didn't have to care what others were thinking.”

Hisagi only nodded, slowly approaching Kira and settling down behind him, wrapping his arms loosely around Kiras waist. But he quickly realized that this didn't help in cheering him up or even having him relax, Kira just stayed all tensed up and Hisagi didn't know what to do.
“What's up?”, he slowly asked and the hesitant word, that Kira answered.

“Do you regret it?”, Kira asked, not indicating what exactly should be regretted.

“What to you mean?”, Hisagi answered, shocked by the assumption he would regret anything. Because Hisagi Shuuhei regretted just very few things, like getting really drunk with a certain red-haired fukutaichou, when the other one passed the last exam,or that liaison with the girl of his parallel class, when he was almost out of the academy. And none of these things had anything to do with his blond-haired lover.

“I mean..”, Kira said, with a shaking voice,”this...us...everything...You got in all that trouble just because of me. If...if we weren't a couple you'd not have such...problems...and...and...you'd not have to run away from Seireitei...and...”

Hisagi had heard enough and placed a finger on Kiras lips while placing a small kiss in Kiras neck.
”I don't regret it. Nothing of it, not even the trouble. It got us a week, just for the two of us. I love you, and I won't let some idiots destroy it. So stop regretting it.”, he said clearly speaking straight from his heart.

Kira sobbed. “but...but...”

“Shh...”, Hisagi said, placing another gentle kiss in Kiras neck. “I'm not regretting anything and you shouldn't either. Let's get back to the hotel so I can prove to you I don't regret it.”
With that he lifted Kira up and quickly made his way back to the Onsen.

~~~~*~~~~

There the staff had already worried about their well-being. Although Kira and Hiasgi had just arrived the evening before the staff really liked them.
They were the ownly guests, despite an elder couple, which were pretty conceited.

After explaining they had spend the evening outside walking around they went into their room, where dinner already waited for them.
They ate in silence and an awkward silence settled down, which both of them disliked very much. But they both didn't know what to do against it.
The waitress came to collect the dishes and the silence grew even more awkward.

Finally Kira decided it was to much and he rose from his seat to walk around the table and in the direction of their futons. Slowly he began to undress himself, not knowing what else to do than going to sleep. He felt sad that the happy atmosphere had been lost.
But just when he started to undo his Hakama, he felt arms wrapping around his waist and he was pulled back against Hisagi's still clothed chest.
First Kira tensed up, but he relaxed just a few seconds later and leaned agains Hisagi, who then started to place small kisses along Kiras exposed neck and shoulders.
Kira sighted and leaned into the touch, crooking his head slightly to give Hisagi better access.
The elder one kept the kisses soft, while his hands started to trail up and down Kiras chest, making the other shiver shlightly.

Kira didn't move, he just leaned back agains Hisagi, his head resting on the others shoulder, exposing his neck to Hisagi, who now also nipped and licked along his neck. When he found a sensitive spot, right where Kiras neck joined the shoulder, he payed special attention to it, leaving a purple mark behind, as his lips moved on.
Meanwhile his hands hand trailed up and down Kiras chest, paying special attention to his nipples, and then moving further down to undo Kiras Hakama.

Kira tensed up at that, he knew Hisagi wouldn't harm him, but he had never done this before. Sure he had had some sexual intercourse back in his academy days. But just with girls and he had never really liked it.
Knowing that Hisagi didn't only have experience with girl, but also with boys, didn't make Kira feel better.
He felt so...stupid...he didn't know what to do, while Hisagi was high above him, knowing what to do without making mistakes.

Hisagis hands stopped, when he felt Kira tense up. His lips moved up to Kiras ear. He placed a kiss just behind it to then ask: “Do you...want me to stop? I don't want to force you into something.”
Kira shook his head, moving around, so he sat facing Hisagi, his legs went around Hisagis waists, and his arms wrapped around the others neck. “Just continue...but be careful...”, Kira said, forcing his initial insecurity away.
Hisagi had, of course noticed it, but he just nodded and placed a chaste kiss agains Kiras lips, slowly deepening it while running his hands across Kiras back. He wouldn't go far today, but he also wouldn't back down now.

Somewhere along the kiss Hisagi lost his Kimono and soon he started to undo Kiras Hakama again.
This time the other one didn't back down, he just burried his head in the crook of Hisagis neck, not daring to look at the other one, or what he was doing right now. To distract himself he started to nibble and such at the patch of skin in front of his mouth, gasping when Hisagi had his Hakama undone and slipped his hand inside.
Soon he fell silent again, biting his lips, to seal the groans, that wanted to escape his lips.
Hisagi of course noticed that and lifted Kiras head up, placing a gentle kiss agains the others lips, whispering against them: “Don't hide. You're beautiful... There's no need for you to be silent.”
He kissed Kira again and then moved his lips across the others neck and then down his chest.
While doing that he lowered Kira onto his back, starting to move his hand inside the others pants again, kissing along his chest, licking, biting, lavishing attention to every sensitiv spot he could find. Bringing Kira closer and closer to orgasm. He knew, that he himseld was close too, and when he felt Kiras fingers reluctantly fumble with the knots of his Hakama he couldn't supress a moan, stilling for a few moment, so Kira could go on.
When his Hakama were undone though Hisagi started to act again, speeding up the movement of his hand, unable to hold back.

Slowly and exploringly Kira let his hand move across Hisagis cock, trying to figure out what made Hisagi feel good.
Soon he started to immitate the others movements, pumping the stiff flesh in his hands, feeling Hisagi shudder and moan every now and then.
Kira himself didn't hold back his sights, moans and small mewling sounds, which escaped his lips.

It didn't take any of them long to reach orgasm and after that they just laid next to each other, trying to regain their breath, kissing each other languidly.
Then Hisagi stood to get some tissues, so they could clean up a bit to then undress completely and settle down on one futon, cuddling against each other.